Fear

What is fear? Fear is a dream killer, fear is a crippler, fear is an interference that can keep you stagnant and not fulfilling the desires that God put in you to fulfill. There are many of us who have desires to do things but are afraid that we are not good enough, we won't succeed, we are unsure of what we are doing, someone told us we can't, or we ourselves are procrastinating and lazy. I can only speak for myself when it comes to fear. For years I have been afraid of many things such as heights, ( I guess because my uncles use to toss me up in the air when they played with me), water (because I almost drowned at age 12 and still have not gotten over it), and spiders (because as punishment my step dad used to make us stand in corners with spiders that he fed so that they could get bigger). Since I have allowed these fears to control me I have never been on a boat( no cruise), I have never flown ( haven't been anywhere but up and down the east coast), and I spray the outside of my apartment door with bleach every day to keep the bugs away from my door. All of these things are so crippling and have kept me from really enjoying life. Well, it is time out for that! I now know how much power I have as a child of God; as God's Favorite Daughter!! When God led on my heart to share my story of living as an HIV positive woman I was more than afraid, I was petrified!! Afraid I would be slandered, lose friends and family, rejected, and that I would disgrace my family. Little did I realize coming out to speak about how I got infected, what I went through, and how I over came it was the beginning to a long road of healing and happiness. I realized that I am helping others and I can do anything that I set my mind to. I tell you all of this to let you know that you have the power over fear. It is a little thing and when you stare it straight in the eye and say," I am more than a conqueror through Christ who strengthens me!!"...you come out on top! So, that thing that you have been "afraid" to do for what ever reason...DO IT!! What is the worse that can happen? You do it and you trip and then get back up and brush yourself off or you don't do it and feel empty because you didn't. You have something in you that someone needs, so kick fear in the face and share it!! In doing this blog I kicked fear in the face and shared all of my business with lots of people and some of them I have helped by stepping out on faith! 

P.S. Look yourself in the mirror everyday and say something kind and loving about yourself. Watch how the love of God will shine in you!!